Billie Eilish 'ashamed' of past actions Bang Showbiz 13 hrs ago Bang Showbiz Billie Eilish is “ashamed” of her past actions. The 19-year-old singer was recently embroiled in controversy after a clip from her early teens showed her listening to Tyler the Creator's 2011 hit 'Fish' and mouthing a racist slur, as well as using a “gibberish” accent and she admitted she’s “incredibly embarrassed” about her previous behaviour, though she insisted she’s no different to anyone else when it comes to regretting the past. She told Australia’s Vogue magazine: “It's really weird how the world can see every aspect of your life and reminisce about [it]. It's so weird.