the story is as bad as the picture looks, you have to do something about it. that was his existence. from that, that's how it began. i was appalled and horrified. >> lumos comes from where? >> it is corny. >> not corny. >> i wanted to call it lumos and no one could think of anything better. but it is a metaphor. >> it is obvious you're doing this. >> it wasn't obvious to me at the time, but to be very candid, i think i have -- i think my worst fear, my personal worst fear is powerlessness and small