reluctantly. >> he was very reluctant. >> from the very beginning he said, look, i've got kids, i want to spend time with my kids, but he reluctantly took the position, but he embraced it. he's gone out and raised $115 million for the republican party. and look, his goals, professionally, was to rein in political spending and tax reform. >> paul ryan's shining accomplishment as speaker is passing tax cuts for the wealthiest americans and corporations, which he says there's lasting implications. yes, lasting for exxon. not lasting forr asally, sue, tommy, and joe. and then maybe vaguely, but doing so. i think it took a toll on him. he knows a blue wave is coming. and paul ryan was a coward and got out of the way. >> you think that he knew that -- that he believed a blue wave was coming? >> i think that's what it is. look, paul ryan was faced with a decision. he could either suffer his -- take his family, his kids,