kind of punk authenticity, but also wanting to be popular. ♪ rape me >> the starmaking machine had sucked nirvana up into its evil guts, and now they had to deal with it. >> we decided to lay low and obviously that was -- you know, someone would say, oh, because kurt's on heroin the whole time. it was just like -- it's been really damaging to us. to tell you the truth. it's really affected my personal life a lot. [ applause ] >> i was in the front row of the "unplugged" performance, and it was a serious artistic statement. kurt didn't play the hits. you know, those songs were chosen for a particular reason. ♪ my girl, my girl ♪ don't lie to me ♪ tell me where did you sleep last night ♪ >> i remember watching him play a cover of a leadbelly song, "where did you sleep last night?" and it was emotional for me because i love nirvana and i felt this connection to kurt cobain and i was always, even