then, can you make this a positive? >> right. it's going to be a celebration of el paso, our culture. somebody who doesn't have access of weapons of war on our streets, that we call on our elected officials. it's going to be a celebration of el paso, grieving with our community coming together. it's not about him but what steps we can take to ensure this doesn't happen again. >> during the break, we were talking it's hard to stand here. you told me the first time you saw the building after the massacre, you cried. what was that like? >> when it actually happened, i was at a church acres two-minute drive from here. police officers, s.w.a.t. team