know kind of completely borg our idea that artists not look like that and then you know i got i was forty i fell as a say i glee i be i wanted and fat. and they sold the work and this first time i saw money i was in paris so the next day i went to the motor shop i bought my first first question cause i remember coming out of the shop i feel great this is why i should not feel in this was the wrong with that. i don't want to be like that kind of abandoned and on and miserable i want to feel good. and this and this really works with the with the sun with the you know just for just about fashion is about i do meditation winter retreats i'm going to wear