holds? i don't. i don't pretend i know everything that is going to happen down the road. >> sean: is the door open, a hair? i really do understand what you are saying when you talk about quiet reflective moments when we get in touch with what our values are, appreciate the gifts we have. you said you had inner clarity and peace that exceeds human understanding. has that changed -- i'm asking if you are leaving the door open a hair? >> i'm not trying to say, oh there's a chance i will revisit this in july. if it revisits me and it may be four years from now, eight years from now and it may be never. i don't ever want to say never. i think is a foolish position. then you have to come back and explain. there's no explaining. my decision is clear, firm. i'm not sitting around thinking is there another way in. i'm out. simple as that. i have a lot other things.