but she blatantly said she wasn't ready. i respect that. i knew she wanted to use, so i didn't talk much about getting clean. >> not surprisingly, o'reilly received distressing news about her friend. >> we heard she od'd. that was the first time i cried. nobody knew anything further than that. they just knew she od'd where the day she got out. >> i got the letter a couple days later. it was such a relief to know it was written after the fact. she's obviously still afraid. >> krystal, what's up, chickie? wednesday i shot dope and died. the fear isn't as strong as it was because, truth be told, i don't give a [ bleep ] about anything. it's actually quite disturbing. oh, well, all bets are off about anything. it's actually quite disturbing. oh, well, all bets are off about anything.