worked the mannheim strip for years. >> i was a heroin iv drug user. that's why i always manage to look at their arms, every time i got high i would pray that i could just fade on away. i wanted to disappear. >> when you're sitting in that chair and you got an opportunity to think about it, you want to get out, because there's no sin that i don't want to get out but then fear sets in all of a sudden and i'm like i don't know anything about this. >> about this other world. this is all i've done for ten years. >> if they're going to do what they say they're going to do, but i do know i can turn a trick. it's a comfort for a few minutes. i'm familiar with that. >> this is some of the ways women rationalize the continuation of what they do on a daily basis.