usually right before i go out, i get panic attacks because i don't know if i'm coming back in. you don't know what's going to happen here. >> as another part of his gradual transition to an sny population, jeremy is no longer in a solitary cell. >> it's been about three years three and a half years since i had a cellie. as soon as i got to the shu, they made me single cell because i had too much violence. i knew i was going to have to take a cellie and i was kind of worried about it. over here men tend to act a little more aggressive, chaotic, you know, a little more uncontrolled of their own emotions. but -- >> what did you fear? >> being trapped in a cell with a big-ass cellie who's going to beat the hell out of you or chop you up, you know. wait until you're asleep and cut your throat. you don't know what another man is thinking in prison.