CW:// This article includes detailed mentions of mental health difficulties and the university’s return policy, alongside brief mentions of racial harassment, transphobia and homophobia. The end of Michaelmas 2020 and my first term at Cambridge complete. It hadn’t been the first term I had been expecting by any means: Covid having robbed me of a proper freshers experience, and my friendship group limited to the people I had randomly been accommodated with. Whilst Covid restrictions allowed it, a friend visited for a day trip in the week after term had finished. His reaction to the city was eye-opening to me. It was like seeing it for the first time again – he reminded me of the beauty around every corner, the magical feeling of the city, the wonder of the striking facades of King’s Parade and Trinity. It felt like it had been so long since I had seen these iconic sights. I had become numb to them. Worse, I had come to hate them, or at least what they represented.