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First the war she would be a grandmother and how happy she would be and then leading me and what to do i was just like helpless i dont know i was handling this child like a fragile thing. Its cannot be described in the real mothers love and i missed it. You know its hard for me to call if they ever saw me crying could be. I really tried my best to protect them and. I kept a lot of things away theres something say i didnt want them to know. When the time already came when they saw my number and they were designee mother what disease you can imagine and theyre too warm and what can you tell it. And i used to say well they put this number because if i get lost found me go find your mama and thats it enclosed. As older i got. And i looked back. And reading between the lines. That they really held it. So this is something id completely forgotten about samantha ology poems by children of Holocaust Survivors and i remembered having a poem published in it but until i just opened it up i remember what paula was the poem was called at 32. I dont remember this poem at all that ill read it for you and i havent seen it in like a long time. Sonia 32 the lady never shakes free the ashes of the dead. Dark clouds dark cauliflower fists i climb the cherry tree for her this year. And carry 5 gallon jars of fresh clover honey for a kitty backstairs this lady is the witness who never forgets she hangs wet wash on the line in a stiff wind against a background of dust she at the dog catcher and cuts chicken to the bone she cries a Long Distance about this and that about the little man who is her son little son. Who is her husband over and over she sings the song her dead. Kid ringback. No you are now here you are. Now your hair looks great. And im looking back. Now what is going on. Do you jeremy nation open up your fancy pronounce of the day you know it says dear sarah or madam please allow this letter to sarah as formal notice of your lease cancellation and. If you have any questions to contact me. It was really a shocking point for me. And i have to prepare myself you dont have to close it. Yes. But now well this is what i was saying to myself. Whats happening now i have to change gears to what i keep larry. Orrible james that i cannot believe myself sometimes when i close my eyes how is your. You know i tell you well. Its always in my mind. When when i. Remember whenever you. Look more down youll be on top. How many years have you been doing this for many years i cannot even counting you know exactly how many years i started to speak up he took it took a long time because i visualized i was very naive from their hearts and respect you for speaking with me but i was very very wrong. And this is very difficult. To talk to me so deeply when i hear one see will go on. And made to still growing. More than i would. So you go warney youre. In a way very disappointed to know world him feeling goes a dissing way. Here speaking up is not to know. Where the life. I was. A mature person. And i was not a humble person. A. Lot of my life not really. Contributing much other than. Carnegie. I just really have any use for anything positive i just. Need a present i. Just want your. Songs you never know who youre going to be is going to change your life. Would shape or form theyre going to come here. My name will soon have been for me. I am to yourself. And i mean in a program and all the kansas presence called reaching out from within. The national recidivism statistics are between 50 and 67 percent of all of the many women who are released will return at least once. Our program if you attend between 60 or more meetings that means a little more than a year. It drops to 8 percent. There are some rituals. Connected with reaching out from within their very important promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your peace of mind cross the optimist creed we finish with it every night through every group we finish with that we want to leave with at least a thought or feeling that if you just believe that things are going to be all right thats. Thats a big majority of things being all right. So here i am having coffee and reading a newspaper about the closing of a Shopping Center and they are interviewing sonia and the interviewer is saying to her youve lost so many things in your life youve had so many disappointments how do you face the world every day. And she said if you look up on the wall so will see the optimist creed and when i come in every morning thats the 1st thing that ive kept and i thought to myself sonia and the optimists create the prisoners and the optimists creed i have to bring them together. Ah. No shots. No one. Well its. Built its 2. Points your thirst for. 54 drugs and more than 1300 military personnel are headed to youll some air force base in a while. Where is that to say come on ill show you whats the reason for any type of enhanced u. S. Military presence in this area rush up. What is it suddenly about the South China Sea that makes it so that it 11000000000 barrels of oil. Take a look at this map who really owns what kind of says no it belongs to us india says no we claim that that belongs to us both of these countries have Nuclear Weapons capabilities there is a reason for concern so thats why were going to drill down on the story for you today right here on the news with rick sanchez where you know as we always like to say we do believe by golly its time to do news again. Then you can know it was really like to be in hell. Because you would never believe it wasnt a human can do to have as a. One day that i was working in the field sunday and cant come said with. The ashes were spreading the ashes as a fairy tale is there and i can tell you based spreading those you know with i could see the little pieces of bones which even in the climate toria it couldnt completely and this was very difficult to me till today i still believe with this save me a kick in the. Pity parties. To exterminate through race. Maybe that injury was when he was beating me up by remaking it and know now i can make it i can make it. She got a number of. These numbers on my server they do no wrong. When i see. It made me say yeah. I never knew who did not see me somebody like that we have to come to this understanding it is what you are insight not to george you how you look or you know what is your religion but as a person what a person you are. Experience is everything. To me takes people who have been through something to reach people who who are going through something. I mean if some people who go out and do crazy things hurt others because theyre hard and they dont think they will get better from. What you say oh. You look at her as you see. Things are good for her now them i give you the courage to say you know. Im not going to what i was thinking about i dont. How do you find forgiveness. Forgiveness is a very important act in normal life but i came to the conclusion myself there are some there seems forgiveness what i have see in people dying hanging him burning children sometimes from the pile theyre burned i would say the people who asked about this burnt i cannot even begin to tell you who am i to say that i forgive you know this has to come from a higher place for a lot different place but forgiveness should be practiced. To put do loath in your heart try to help you become like a different person i see the parole board in 6 months or so. Hopefully ill be. You know. I mean something. And. I return to that around. I hope that all of you in time will be in freedom but enough to dont never to come back to this place even like i say still mad the war stay all that i mentioned to you and theres. A worry thank you so wonderful come here goes due to us not only me but a lot of these guys in here that youve given me more strength after 32 years of being here makes me want to stay. To get out here so i appreciate you coming here thank you i really really. Make out that you know that we are all stuck at that you see when i get out on the farm saw you know was there an excuse so he can listen and hopefully be blessed by. Her experience. Straight up because i believe hes dead bob did a course free 32 years and nothing to be compared with it at all this was your mother both of yesteryear like it would kill me in just a moment the bride was here. This week i could feel. Shes a lot tougher by. The. Way in this story to say you. Were serious right place theyre coming to. Take your. Word for how do you. Know. If i might make it. Through all the strong things dont go. Yes you can be very small where the dreams. In the winter of 944 my mom was forced on the desk march from auschwitz to the notorious for going bills and. And this brings us to how the war ended for my mom when british troops approached her camp and what happened between her and then s. S. Guard on her last day of captivity. Theyre relating to it and theyre thinking about themselves and their families and so i feel an obligation now and its an obligation that im glad to do now and honestly i feel privileged. I really feel privileged. That i can do this you know it means to me. And it means to me there and i wish that my father. And i wish that he. Had enough to sed when he was. He. You and i are speaking on the 78th anniversary of the liberation of one of the camps that you were in Bergen Belsen see. No it was the voters said it was a head in a set they. Did that is that it is least. It is here or is there still is the reality vibrating it here is coming closer and closer they need this sort of liberation. Of course they were starting to see if it could change the area where my mother was working. There were still a couple of this guards that were. In the cars for trying to stop them as shooting if. The bullets came in at sentiment of my house and it came through that. Close. And then girls with this from the same wallet. That. I was the most serious. At the moment when the bullets came i did not realize what is happening to me until the blood will start coming. Home and im dying. So this was a terrible experience just to see dave to do. After so much trauma. But i made it. She survived years in them all and they cant stand up. And they did awful spoke to me mrs riley. Least. 11 years old and very little sleep i am so glad. You did it me to. Literally. I mean there are limits on all sides. And the mass murders who find them coming theyre telling their friends about. It. Thats mentally. Ill. So he obviously facts a lot of people and when she talks people they say they want to do something about it and they want to make a change. And i thought that it was important that i actually density thing instead of just talking about it. So my name is caroline kennedy. To say beat him. And i just graduated from my school. So i met sonia when i was in 8th grade and her story we changed my life and completely changed my outlook on what i want to do. With her one individual story was all it took to inspire me to go and start this organization. Thats really the whole idea because one person has the power to impact one person has a power to impact one person and its a huge chain reaction. I mean if you think about it sonia coming to my school had an impact on all of you now in so maybe me coming to your school will have an impact on other people in the future. You know with the you. Part of the book put it. Down. To negotiate a good citizen who said you could open the local office. That just happened. To say no more. Of the stuff but dont take care this was faked fixing to force you to put stinky in the body we noticed. That big allow. For mall. Lets stick by your lies to make bucks if we print agreed. To the bank leading the police in the. Senate and it is likely to finish it should citizenship. Test. Welcoming our viewers from around the world live from Central London this is all too u. K. The home secretary announces quarantine plans for International Travelers as aviation experts warn it could be workable and even destroy the industry. Lost leader launches a legal challenge over long time restrictions on friday quote as we hear from his barrister. Resigned to the Group Advising the u. K. Government publishes its evidence for the reopening of schools in june but only feels im certain see im on teachers and parents. And elite government report reveals that Emergency Responders on concerned of the prospect of britain leaving the e. U. Without a deal with the virus still not contained. Welcome to r. T. U. K. The home secretary has unveiled plans for quarantining International Travelers to prevent new waves of coronavirus during the u. K. Governments daily Coronavirus Press briefing pretty patel said arrivals would have to self isolate for 14 days with tough penalties for those who dont comply onto u. K. Shadi admits that he has the latest on this so that shot it what are these new quarantine proposals so essentially the big news of today is yet another attempt to try and stop the spread of the virus and the sense to keep the our number as low as possible so today the home secretary pretty fertile announced that anybody coming into the United Kingdom from aboard will have to quarantine for up to 14 days. We offer when the science and introduce him Public Health measures that are supported by sage this will rule will require International Arrivals to self isolate for 14 days that is the incubation period of the virus so that if people have become infected overseas we can limit the spread of the virus act home we also recognize how hard these changes will be for our travel thekla and leisure set who already struck in through these unprecedented times so across government we will continue to work with them and support what is an incredibly dynamic set to to find new ways to reopen International Travel and tourism in a safe and responsible way we will review these temporary Public Health measures every 3 weeks to ensure they remain the right ones for our roadmap to recovery. Now im to the parents anyone coming to the United Kingdom from abroad could face a penalty fine of a 1000 pounds if they fail to self isolate the 2 weeks as soon as people arrive in britain be it by plane ferry or train theyll have to fill out a form with all of their Contact Details including an address of where they will be sort of isolating otherwise accommodation will be arranged by the government now under the plans Health Officials will also be able to carry out spot checks to see whether people are complying with the governments policy they will accept certain groups from the measures though including medical offices and rode horses as well as those living in common travel areas like island and the Channel Islands now the new rules are not expected to come into force until june 8th but the government has promised it will look to review the policy every 3 weeks now by and large these plans are welcomed but some market these quarantine policies are quite frankly ludicrous bonkers and are implementable because if you are traveling into the United Kingdom that is obviously not your final destination a majority of these people will have to then get on public transport to reach it so some say that that entirely defeats the point now this was an issue that was raised today in the Home Affairs Select committee where the chief executive of the Airport Operators association also wanted to see the evidence of the usefulness of who and why people are exempt from this policy of course and then i was not going to fly a flight if they were not to hold who are exempt will. You come in here so you know and thats why were concerned about the way that this will operate you may simply. Shut down already know. Now unsurprisingly there has been some criticisms about the timing of this bear in mind over a month ago dominic robb the foreign secretary at the time was standing in for Boris Johnson who himself was fighting of that 900 he had spoken long and hard about implementing this quarantine policy cut forward to a month and today pretty fertile says it is the right time to do so its the most effective time to implement this policy but it has led to many a question in the shadow house secretary John Ashworth he says the United Kingdom putting this policy in place is simply quite frankly too little too late especially considering that other countries if we look across the globe at all the models many of which have already seen their own respective lockdowns implementing this current policy well