..he says that he actually had an idea, started trying to go in that direction and had to completely put it to bed. and it was several months ofjust torturous being unable to get out what he needed to say. he said it was the most intense compositional experience he�*s ever had. to learn that piece was, i think, the most intense. without any comparison, really, the most intense experience i�*ve had of getting to learn any piece of music. this has been a rough 2a hours with a huge reality check on how lacking in absolute preparation i am.