and my mind went to that and i was hit in the face with that. and then, i was hit in the face with the beauty and the gentleness and the nurturing of the earth. and i saw death, and i saw life for me as well as for the earth. and i felt such sadness, empathy, sorrow, for the earth. the earth is less bright than it used to be, apparently. and -- and i know that the death and destruction that's going on. one species -- millions of species are disappearing. the beauty of the earth that fostered all this gorgeous stuff. this intricate gorgeousness of life is disappearing and it will disappear. at least we, as witnesses, will disappear. and i wept for that, too. and when i landed, i was so filled with that emotion of life