i almost think i was relieved. like, okay, you can rest now because it's over. >> how did you hear about what happened? >> the news. and then everybody at work was freaking out. everybody was like -- gobs of erbes mails going back and forth. people could not believe it because she was so excited to finally have a baby. >> meanwhile, on lockdown, sarah faced her worst demons alone. >> what happened to ben? >> when i was standing before the judge, behind the plexiglas, i just kept trying to look for him, and tried to gage, you know, what was going to happen and what he thought of me. at some point as the judge was