>> i said, it must seem like a dream, right? she said, no, more like a nightmare. what's wrong? everything is wrong. it doesn't feel right. i don't know what to do. i said, you have to find a way to be okay with this. >> sarah wasn't sleeping, and before long, ben returned to work. >> ben came home at some point and i was just on the couch, just a mess, crying, and she was crying. he said, what's wrong? my answer was, no, i can't do this. i know he thought i meant the breastfeeding, really, i just meant all of it. i just needed somebody to come in and take over but i didn't have anybody in my life that was that role.