with it the rest of my life. i mean, you know, people will remember my successes, and they had also will also remember those failures. it's a major failure. i've had failures in the past, you know, in my career, but i mean, like this is a whole different ball game. this is a whole different dimension of failure. >> what do you want us to understand about all that? >> i think the documentary makes it very clear that i'm a person that has huge successes and huge failures, and that was one of them. and i'm not proud of it. i despise it. but it is what it is. and i feel terrible about it. and, you know, but i don't want to get into it, and i think i said enough in the documentary. when people watch it, they will get it.