a plan that. You know. Where. I would be safe to. Stop going to talk to chose to. Take the action know that that's. Ok criticize someone. When you are going. To get. That. I have a special guest. In its super fan. I love it all right so I'm going to pray hold on just a minute Father God we just thank you for Kim and the leading that you have had in her life and we just ask that you would bless her and and to continue leading her where you want her to be and we just thank you for her large Amen All right Ok We're going to play him does music she leads worship so we're going to play her song on her cd so. Right isn't that awesome thank you I love this song which is sitting in here jam and anybody that's listening they'll have to look at our Facebook because I went ahead and now we can't we can do things while where we are in here that you know and I do I do radio so I don't have to have pictures but you know how sometimes you just gotta do it sometimes it's just. Right Kim I got to know Ok I know that you're out you're leading worship but you've got a lot of things going on yes so tonight I'll be heading over to the salvation church in Aurora leading worship there tonight they're having a worship and praise evening and then Saturday up in Lyons for a women's retreat for women's a live ministry where I mean we're live ministry that has been ironic and yes and then Sunday opening for Martin King. 2 of El Rey in my illness so yes you are just slammed I'm so excited about it it's you know the Lord's been really faithful and well and I know you stepped out in faith Yeah you really stepped out I mean because I know we talked about this last time you were on here but God hasn't called me into full time ministry yet because I've got a lot of preparation they do he's got to do before that and you just laid it all out there and he's taking care of you he did it was really it really was a step of faith it was walking by faith and not sight I I knew what I could do for myself how to take care of my my world my income my provision whatever you know through my day job right and to stop that and trust in Lord's provision was really it was really a step of faith for me and he's been faithful I mean just right right away so my husband's just he's scared that God's going to call me and a full time. I want to not be surprised. It's like Ok God If you want me to do this you've got to fix some stuff 1st. Yeah but you know you can do it yeah you know yeah and I couldn't keep holding on to all these different things he wanted me to be single minded and focused and be able to take one step in front of the other in his direction and that helped for a minute I was used to being a really really busy I said I'm still busy but now it's all on the same thing instead I was had my you know you were spread out too much what I often say that work is interfering with my ministry and it was because there's like there's many a times when I'll be invited to speak at a luncheon or or at an event that is when I'm working and I just don't have that much leave time right it's hard and then and then if you want to be fully rested and peaceful and receiving word from the Lord to not able to interact with people individually or or pray. Listen it's hard when you're if you're really busy and spread too thin right well I mean you got to sleep sometime. Yeah and it 1st it was so quiet there was like a time in between when I 1st stepped away from these different components that I kind of I wanted to panic I had some anxiety about it because I was thinking. I'm supposed to be doing I should be at work right now and you know you needed to rest yeah it is a calm before the storm. But yes and ironically different things would unfold where I would be thinking to myself oh my gosh if I would have been working I would have been able to do that night so I'm loving it letting go of the anxieties around it and just having the faith well if people are following you on Facebook they're going to wonder how in the world can she do all of this on it because I see that you're going from this event to this event and you're here and you're there and yeah it's pretty crazy yeah I know on social media I've had people tell me that it looks like I'm really just always on the go but I really only I'm doing maybe 15 to 20 hours worth of ministry so it's still very part time as it was all over. I mean you live on the north and you know a lot of the events like we're down here the radio show yeah down south right. You don't you go the t.v. Show that you do where is that that's off orchard and I 25 nowhere near where you live right yeah yeah it's been neat but God blessed you with a new car now so you can drive where. My little car zooms everywhere it's really good on gas and I'm loving it yeah that was a big decision to do it was because you were talking about like a little let them know that the big hailstorm Yes really did your car in it was totaled the insurance company totaled it right and. I thought it would be fun to hold onto it I was going to buy it back at the salvage amount right and then go down to liability insurance but then there started to be rest appearing where the hell damage was in certain areas the windshield was completely bested out from the hill and if I would invest in it to get it kind of back up to par a little bit. If there was another accident somewhere the insurance company was only going to cover it to the salvage amount so I started filling like. This may go to the guy where you gotta take the blessings when they come right and that was just one of those things that God blessed you with a new car. That you go oh are you still leaving worship on Sunday nights up north then yes Ok Dr Church and in fact Martin Cantu who's coming in as a guest he's been on the Joyce Meyer program and he had El Rey So it's l capital r e y his ministry and people they're coming in to do the main He'll be speaking in and they'll be music from him and we're opening for him so I'm really excited about that but that's thrive on Sunday night Ok and that's up in Federal Heights right yes that's off of I 25 and Thorton Parkway just before you get to federal. Left and so people want to come and see you what time are you there we will start at 6 o'clock 6 o'clock yes awesome and I've got friends that go there yes. Well that's awesome and I got to ask you Ok the name of the song that we played is tell me again whatever you want whatever you want Ok so how did that come to be because you you've been leading worship for quite a while and it wasn't always something that you thought you'd ever do God put this on you and then all the sudden now he's telling you you got to write your music and write your song it's I was doing background vocals for years and I really had. Excepted that that was my role was to be supportive I did not believe I had a strong voice I had did not have confidence in my voice and that doesn't matter to the Lord you know once as a transition what you're supposed to be doing so that was a leap of faith to to step out and be leading all the songs and you know but yeah I would never be leading I mean I mean I did I was in a praise team you know I don't yeah I don't worship but I would never do a solo I was scared to death of it it takes a lot of courage I still can't do it you know really does but that song stems from a time where I had a measure of healing in my life and. I asked the Lord for mercy. For this healing and I said I would do whatever you wanted which is very naive thing to say because he really doesn't need us for anything but he does want us he has a home and yeah so that's what that song represents is you know whatever you want Lord you know and you know that's a hard thing to do to give your total all it really is because you put your whole life in God's hands which I mean we say that we do but saying it and physically doing that it looks a lot different especially if there's no manifestations right then and there you know there's nothing tangible like I couldn't go to work in my day job and I know for sure each hour that I work I'm getting this certain amount of hourly You know it right handle right there. The following the Lord sometimes the tender ability the manifestations take I'll take a little while like working on commission. I've been so surprised how faithful Lord has been is in his provision he's been he can see you know he confirms he just keeps putting the one step in front of the other so it's beginning to be easier for me to discern where I need to be spear where I should follow the spirit and the Spirit lead verses following my own self my own hustle Lord is like no you don't get to do a hustle with ministry. I have got this. I got you covered right yeah. Yes I always was to where I wanted confirmation because I doubted myself and I did and I still do you know I'm like Ok so how how are you I'd ask my husband how are you feeling about me doing Nez you know I and my husband is I love him. I do love my husband but he is a pessimist that does try to get a confirmation from a pessimist and he's. How do you how do you say it he's got to figure everything out is a planner and a calculator and analytical Yes Very much so so and I just one of those that just flies by the seat of my pants you know I'm right and God says go I just go and figure it out when I get there for him when God says go it's like Ok what route are we going to take what are we taking with us how long we're going to be there right yeah right yeah and even in confirmations for myself I would I could have the banter with the Lord I could run circles around a confirmation of like well but could it be you know this or are you sure you know I want to like I just want to except a clear cut conversation and I'll still try to divide it all well and then you know and then I get doubt you know because yes the conference that I'm still going to do it God has not let me off the hook on a minute I'm still working on it I don't know how it's going to work but he's going to pull some things together and I'm still praying about it I'm excited about whenever things don't work out the way you thought God had him play and I mean I question is that really what you want me to do right and now I'm like now what am I supposed to do with it it didn't work you know what's interesting is something like that happened this past weekend on that that television program that I support with Maurice Washington their lights went out. Oh no and it was only during when they needed to be filming it and so his guest has had some needs it's a younger person and they have Asperger's and k. . What ended up working out they ended up being able to do a trial run a practice run and reschedule it for next week that practice run was crucial. And the lights kit went on they were on for the rest of the time after that. You know sometimes God you know is he knows best even when you can't figure out well you know seems like it all went wrong but well I'm just thinking that he's going to make it bigger and better because it's timing. And for me I get there I'm not I'm not a weight waiting person you know I write I like to like I want to get it done right away and and my my verse that keeps coming up I have like these apps and it sends me a little verse and this one says Be still in the presence of the Lord and wait patiently for him to act don't worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes Psalms $3077.00 that's I love that snow so it was like hell that you know whenever God gives you something like that then you just gotta step back and you got to Ok all right I hear there's seeds been planted. Operation happening Mentally you've been able to kind of discern some things some turns to make around this I believe when it goes down it's going to be phenomenal well and I've had people come to me and and say that you know when when I'm ready right let's do it you know so yeah never. Whenever it's time I'll be putting it out there for everybody but so what kind of things are you looking for to show what will lead you into knowing that the timing is coming closer you know I've been I've been pouting Ok. How do you. I've been like Ok I don't know what to do now you didn't do things the way weight I thought they should have been so you know I said I tell my husband I'm just waiting for God to tell me where I'm supposed to go and what I'm supposed to do but God told me that I'm supposed to be going and doing now I'm not supposed to be waiting so my light heart has been starting to warm me and to into directions and I'm I've just got to get on my knees that's that's cool that's the biggest thing I just need to stop pouting and get get on my knees and start listening to him. It's hard to not Powell are his children you know. I guess I just had to act like a child right well because I wanted it to so yeah like a child I didn't get what I wanted so I'm putting Yeah you know we want it on our right and yeah. Well I know it'll come it'll come I'm hoping to have things. Go on soon here because I'm hoping to have it in March Ok you know that gives plenty of time to let God put things in or they're supposed to but for some reason I just keep getting March in Ok you know in my prayers and I'm like Ok March that's where shooting for March while I'm praying for just be open be prepared. Things to discharge falling into place easily for you don't have to you know there won't be a lot of toil around it that right yeah well and I know the finances was a bigger thing with the company that I was working with before and I think God he's that's not something that I need to worry about you know he's got it covered yes. You're going to be surprised I think you're going to be really surprised how how little pieces of it will start coming together yes so so it will be it will be getting the women's conference going and it's going to be big hit. And Kim is going to be doing our worship so I already put her on the spot I'm in I'm in total agreement about that I've been prayerful around it and ever since the beginning right you know there was a nugget of of that in there that I just was like I just you know there's something right about that yeah and I think he's going to pull it all together yeah he's going to let me help me pull it all together I got to pull myself together for. The opportunity to do that I'm you know. I just think it's so needed I mean you know you go to women's conferences and I go to a lot of them and and it's such a it's such a hit and miss you know it's like a hit and run is what I see it as you know you go and it's all this hype and all this glory and excitement and then there's they're gone and there's no follow up that's why I just totally believe in have a numb locally when you have people there that can help the women afterwards you know if they if they have a need if they need someone to to help stop or no or yeah of some prayer around something around it or at least have contacts local contacts support group follow up meetings Yeah so that's that's my goal is to try to get it started and and get local speakers and authors people that that can be here to help and yeah I love that and we'll get it go in I'm not sure if it'll be a splash but it'll make a splash Ok but I can see the heart of God around it because I think that's what the body of Christ is and that's what this shows all about is building the body of Christ so that's right and we got to do it together we can't do it alone it takes it takes a whole body that's so true and you want to have things already you want to be prepared with things in place in case there is a crisis or a trauma or you know some type of illness or setback it's better to have sometimes you can. Into a situation where you are not able to pray any longer because you're just you know in the that's why we have arms and feet and yeah all the whole the whole thing because we're not meant to do it alone. And I know so many times I feel like well I have to do this and God has been telling me No it's not you you may be a part of it but it's it's going to it's a body Yes so will be workin on it all right so I want people to I know that you you do sing and perform at other churches so I want people to be able to get a hold of you if they want you to come and do your King Yes So it's Kim Rock's my for same as spelled k y e m and then it's r o x and you can find me on Facebook that's primarily where I plan everything right so you can contact me through Facebook and. For me and you know if you don't get a hold of her you're missing out on something because you got it you got to follow all of her stuff that she's got going on in places that she's going to be at and they've got. And you can listen to her music I guess yes we have that up Saturday Saturday night so you can listen to that and then. Tell us again where you're going to be out of people can come and listen to you perform so Sunday night at thrive church up in Federal Heights off Parkway and I $25.00 be opening for March in camp 2 and yes Dr Church 6 o'clock pm and you've got a pretty good group with you Yes Yes Ross Fox praised box you love that. So you so so you were led to do this because you were sick and God told you you needed to start singing yeah immediately immediately after I had the measure of healing I I was in scripture and I recognize that the Lord was was saying I was going to sing and I remember feeling like a little kid I was like I'm going to sing because I hadn't been involved in anything I wasn't choirs growing up I never had used a microphone I loved to sing but I had never had any part of you know there was no any kind of training right so. That was a surprise to me and that was over 10 years ago and I have the son. Pretty much every weekend. From the 1st place that I got plugged into from from that singing thing you know on the right the Lord has been the new the Lord never stopped confirming that even when you know I didn't no matter what I felt about the whole situation God was strong he never failed out ourselves Yeah you know well and I guess for me I was like no God You know this isn't something you're calling me to do because I I had a lot of traumatic instances with women growing up so I didn't I didn't like women oh. Well I have a fear I don't let women get really close to me because I have that fear of having the door slammed in front of me you know being hurt and then God says you're going to start working with women and not just women hurting women. So you know it is funny how he pulls you out of your comfort zone and so you know you're somewhere down a full circle of healing in your life well being as I think he puts you in places where I totally believe that you can't give something to somebody that you don't have I And when you can say that you've gone through something but for people that are hurting if you haven't really been through what they're going through they don't really listen no you know so I feel that we all go through things and the pain that's associated with those things that we go through is what I can relate with I may not have went through the exact same thing that you went through but the pain that I experienced is the same pain that you go through yeah and to have something about that does give you encouragement and hope and kind of gives you Ok I can I can make it through this sometimes it takes a while to get through a painful situation but to see somebody on the other side of it that's if you're in the middle of it and you see somebody that's walked through it and they're past it now and thriving in their life and that's a beautiful gives you a certain amount of faith that Ok if they can do it I can do it right because I'm not going to tell anybody that it's easy. Or that it was easy for me I didn't do it or that or that it's quick you know you know because I still I still