The woman told the court she suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder, anxiety and depression since the attack. “I was such a bright and bubbly person, with a bright smile and a kind heart, and I feel like he's destroyed that,” she said. Sergey Mironov/ Sergeymironov.co In her impact statement about Allan's assault, the woman said she now struggled with nightmares, flashbacks, and difficulty concentrating, saying she was “constantly thinking about that night and wondering why he did it”. (File photo) “I have frequent thoughts that I could be dead right now. At the age of 24 I could be dead.