She's the former chair of the new hampshire republican party and was formerly working for governor bill wald. doug thornell head of -- >> skdk. >> you guys keep changing your initials. the whole knickerbocker thing. and michael steel the former chairman of the republican national committee, msnbc political analyst. jennifer, you're on satellite. and you made -- you did something that many people in your shoes talk about doing quietly, maybe talk to their spouse about doing but feel uncomfortable doing which is sort of going public with your concern about donald trump. explain what kind of blow...