Firecracker of a woman, she was about 5 2 , but when she got out of the hospital, the depression was so deep she was down to like, she lived on the couch and she weighed about 70 pounds, and that all that imagery spun into my head at that time that i thought that was a very, in my head at the time, i thought that that was a cowardly way for my father to have left, and i was deeply upset by that. and until my father and i had a conversation years later where i ....