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I've researched on this with you and your family and matthew, it's hard to imagine any who suffers from this kind of illness who's had more love and support from their family, from a wide circle of friends, who's had more treatment from the so-called experts, more instituti institutionlized -- >> right. >> moments. everything you can imagine and still it wasn't enough to save him. >> if you look at the risk factors of what puts people at risk for suicide, matthew had almost none of the risk factors. he had a great, as you say, loving family. he had access to care, he had friends, he had everyt...

Everything that happens in the world, god allows, he permits. but because it couldn't happen without his permission. but we live in a world where there are free choices. if i choose to do wrong, i can't blame god for that. so god isn't to blame for my son's death. my son took his life. it was his choice. if i chose to go out and get drunk and get in a car and get in an accident, i can't blame god for that. >> kay, have you gone through any doubt of your faith? >> it's what rick said, our faith is the foundation that's gotten us through. it's solid and strong. before, i have something i want to...

Risk for suicide, matthew had almost none of the risk factors. he had a great, as you say, loving family. he had access to care, he had friends, he had everything. and yet -- >> strong social system around him. >> yeah. the main risk factor for him was mental illness and he had that. >> if love could have kept my child alive, he'd be alive today because he was incredibly loved. he had an older sister and older brother who were fiercely protective of him, even as a young child, when he -- the signs of mental illness came on and we could see it, the whole family rallied around. >> he was not ost...

He was afraid of pain. i remember 10 years ago, when he was 17, he came to me sobbing and he said, daddy, he said, it's really clear, i'm not going to get any better. we'd gone to the best doctors, hospitals, best treatments, therapists, prayer, everything you could imagine, good support and he says, it's real clear i'm not going to get any better so why can't i just die? i know i'm going to heaven, so why can't i -- he was not afraid to die. >> what did you say to him, rick? >> in that situation, i said, matthew, the reason why, there is a purpose even in our pain. i am not willing to just gi...