Willing to discuss right now. >> totals? do you know how much you've consumed over the years? >> no. i'm not going to be a wilt chamberlain or gene simmons or any of those people trying to put numbers on how much i drank or women i've been with. i've had a good time and i can honestly say i think people around me have had a good time, too. i don't think anybody's walked away from the party or it's been wild and said i feel weird or used or that was just dirty or wrong or bad. it's always been -- it might be dirty fun, at the same time it's got an element of clean to it. >> i like that. you're ...