that is mama. that is sharon. that is shelby. ♪ >> the girls actually don't have any memory of him. sarah was three months old when he died. what are you going to remember from being a newborn. shelby had just turned 2. i get a lot of questions about heaven, about, well, did daddy love us. i try very hard to weave him into our everyday existence. if somebody eats cookie dough, daddy loved cookie dough. >> but we know -- >> no. >> unfortunately in this day and age, everything is preserved forever. everything is on the internet. so everyone damning headline, every nasty thing that was said. one of these days, somebody is going to google his name, and you're going to find 15,000 pages, literally.