it's a high stress job. what happened is there were only 285 when i went in. there is way less than 1000 now. you can die on a wednesday on a range on camp pendleton. it's not just combat. the way you relieve that as we were sitting in a bar in the unit where they work. that bar is a memorial and also functional. when we were at war if you came to work and turned around the corner and the beer lamp had been lit by the commanding officer everyone had to go get burgers and go to the volleyball court. we would drink beer and eat a burger and celebrate the life that we lost for the rest of the day no matter what was on the schedule. we will make it up tomorrow. it's a much different marine corps and different military now. but that's what it takes to serve for 20 years taking bombs apart every single day and deploying every 12 months. i got to be in it for a few years. they are my heroes. >> i was just going to say you mentioned that you lost 10% of