>> incredible performer. but he had this amazing smile. do you feel he's still with you? do you feel he smiles down on you? >> yes. a day doesn't go by where i don't think about him. not one day. that goes for the rest of my brothers and sisters. we've spoken about it. >> some of the most touching stuff in the book is about you and michael when you were very young, really liked those passages because it was like you were looking after each other's backs a bit, you each had each other, yet the teasing was relentless and he could be very naughty with you, but he always kind of knew you were there for him. >> i feel that he did. i hope so. we never talked about that, but, well, that's -- i feel like that's part of my job as little sister, to have my back, to have the back of my brothers and sisters. >> what was he like as a little chap? >> as a kid?