soldiers was yelling at me, you're the translator, you're the spy. then they forced us on our stomachs. i think with all had that sinking feeling that this is it. i remember looking up at a tall soldier and saying, shoot them. it felt like a lot of time elapsed, but i think it was just a matter of seconds. and another soldier said to him, you can't, they're americans. >> i want to read something that you wrote about that moment. you said at that moment, though none of us thought we were going to live, steve tried to keep eye contact until they pulled the trigger. the rest of us felt the powerless of resignation. you feel empty when you know it's almost over. explain that. what do you mean? >> i don't know how my colleagues felt, but it wasn't panic necessarily. it wasn't that kind of desperation of flailing about that you're about to be killed. it was almost that, it's hard to describe other than calling it resignation or emptiness that the moment is drawing near and you're waiting for it. >> you really thought you were going to die? >> yes. when they demanded we lay on our