we were put on our knees first and i remember one of the soldiers was yelling at we, you're the translator, you're the spy. then they forced us on our stomachs. i remember looking up at a tall soldier and saying, shoot them. it felt like a lot of time elapsed and another soldier said to him, you can't, they're americans. >> i want to read something that you wrote about that moment. you said at that moment, though none of us thought we were going to live, steve tried to keep eye contact. the rest of us felt the powerless of resignation. you feel empty when you know it's almost over. what do you mean? >> i don't know how my colleagues felt, but it wasn't panic necessarily. it wasn't that kind of desperation of flailing about that you're about to be killed. it was almost that, it's hard to describe other than calling it resignation or emptiness that