elapsed, but i think it was just a matter of seconds. and another soldier said to him, you can't, they're americans. >> i want to read something that you wrote about that moment. you said at that moment, though none of us thought we were going to live, steve tried to keep eye contact until they pulled the trigger. the rest of us felt the powerless of resignation. you feel empty when you know it's almost over. explain that. what do you mean? >> i don't know how my colleagues felt, but it wasn't panic necessarily. it wasn't that kind of desperation of flailing about that you're about to be killed. it was almost that, it's hard to describe other than calling it resignation or emptiness that the moment is drawing near and you're waiting for it. >> you really thought you were going to die? >> yes. when they demanded we lay on our stomachs, we all were begging no, we don't want to, we're sorry, we're begging not to go on our stomachs. we all felt when we were on our stomachs they were going to start shooting. as soon as i went on my stomach, i was just waiting to hear gunfire.