that wasn't love. >> horrible. >> it sucked. >> why was he like that? why was he so angry? >> i think it was learned behavior. people are taught everything, you know. i think he probably learned it from someone else or his dad or someone in his family. i don't think that stuff comes out of the blue. you know, i think there was problems with probably substance abuse and stuff like that. you know, i don't really blame him for his actions. my dad, you know, i still love my dad. he's like the white fred sanford. we were buddies when i was growing up. i just think that kids was an afterthought. it wasn't a priority. oh, [ bleep ], i got kids. >> did he ever apologize to you for hitting you? >> no. >> do you think he should? >> no.