>> not to my knowledge. i just -- i knew that i was doing what i was -- what was right, what was offered to me by a policy that i trusted and i believed to be lawful. >> so, what was going through your head while all this was happening? >> i was scared to death. obviously i was very frightened. and i think since this has happened, i've been able to sort of surmise that i feel betrayed. i feel betrayed by the police officers. i feel betrayed by my university police and security. >> why do you feel betrayed by your hospital security? >> because i called them. i went down into the emergency department to get help, to have someone protect me because i felt unsafe from officer payne from the beginning. >> and why is that? why were you feeling immediately unsafe with him? >> he was aggressive from the beginning. as a nurse, it's my job to assess a situation, to assess a patient. and my assessment skills led me to believe that officer payne was already agitated.