it was my internist. he checked me into the hospital immediately for tests. he said very calmly, we've discovered there is a malignancy. i had been diagnosed with ovarian cancer. >> after she was diagnosed, she responded like i think a lot of people respond and was absolutely convinced that this was the end of her life, and she didn't take calls from me, and she didn't take calls from judy. it was a pretty tough, difficult time. >> last night i had a huge, angry, violent breakdown. why me? why me? i thought i was supposed to be the jester. i end up somehow being the beggar. i feel like some fighter who keeps getting knocked down to the floor.