>> the original idea came from my relationship with my wife. >> you painted this after you broke up. >> uh-huh. >> it's a community to me. we're allowed to be human beings in this space. >> so it's good to see you, man. >> you, too. you, too. >> how are you feeling about this? >> i think i'm prepared for it, but still, it's -- i've woken up in the middle of the night thinking about it. that's for sure. it's occupied space in my head. >> yeah. right? this is going to be a very emotional experience. >> yeah. i think a lot of questions are unanswered. you hold on to anger over that, and the whole trial process never answers those questions. they say there's closure through it, but there isn't. you know, you're left still feeling victimized. >> what makes it difficult is any time you bet inget into thi whether you're conscious of it or not, you have to confront yourself. >> right. >> what would make me forgive the person that molested me as a child and terrorized me? what would it take?