him come to terms with his experience instead of shutting himself away at home he went out more so than before he wanted to feel alive they stood to use mean that night in november is forever a part of him they are complex. as a survivor you feel guilty that others had to die while you got away with your life now. these tattoos are like my own gunshot. they show that i was there that night and who i am. things are better now and still life for the forty one year old will never be the same again also in a good way. i'm much more willing to take a leap now that. i've only been with my girlfriend for seven months and we're already talking about moving in together and having a child. i would have been much more hesitant to do that two years ago.