of my life where i really didn't know what i wanted to do after college and all that, so it kind of all came together, and it was also that, and also after i heard about the shootings in pittsburgh and in binghamton, new york, i was like, "i have to address this. i have to do something about this. i can't just sit on the side anymore." oprah: were you surprised every time at how readily accessible guns were to you? >> yeah. these guys were just concerned about the money they were gonna make. i've been around guns beforehand. i'd shot guns. i've been to the range. i've been hunting before. i passed basic rifle marksmanship in army rotc. so it wasn't some foreign thing, but i didn't know that it was really that easy to buy, but when it comes to selling them, it's just like a tv or a sofa. it's just something that gets them 300 bucks, and that's what they're concerned about. that blows my mind. oprah: so when you survive a random victimization such as the massacre there at the school and 32 people are killed, is there a