and nothing could be more wrong, more out of bounds, more out of context than spilling your heart out on c-span. everything todd wanted to sty helen, either really shouldn't have been said because he recognizes the hopelessness of saying it, why say anything to a former love if not to get her back, or if he absolutely had to say this, had to make her hear this in order to get to with his life, and needed to say it on tv so that we could all be warned about or attracted to helen, then this was the place to say it. >> [ bleep ] [ bleep ]. >> helen's essay in the goldberg scleks entitled, the smoker's code. todd's essay title is, conservatism for punks. helen, you should have known.