got in, i was screaming his name, just screaming and screaming, "benjie, benjie, benjie!" so he saw me and he walked toward me. >> so it was more of a relief than i can even convey when i came on to the boat and i put my arms around her and i thought finally we're together, we're on the life boat, we're safe and this is over. but it was not over. we're on the port side of the ship, which is the high side. as they try to lower it down to the water, it starts hitting against the side of the cruise ship. sometimes it free falls for three feet and then we suddenly get jerked into place. >> i suddenly realized that they had no idea what was going on and they did not know how to operate the life boat. they had never done this. and i remember looking down and