if you fail at something, you get up and you try it again. you do it a different way. but we can't quit life. we can't quit. and i thought, if i would not have taught her that, maybe she wouldn't have fought so hard. i came here and thought i would yell and scream at everybody. tell everybody how much i hated them, but that's not who i am because i don't. i don't have hate in my heart. and i have faith and hope that because i've come here today, that maybe one of you, one person, will reach out to someone in your life to give them hope, to make a difference. >> filming with miss tuthill was one of the most difficult things