hands, kick, can you do anything, i don't want this, why is this person doing this, and me not being able to do, react in any specific way. so i was limp. i was a limp noodle. >> did he say anything? >> no. no, he said nothing. that i could recall. i was in and out of consciousness. >> and you don't remember being able to speak? >> inside, i was crying out inside, in my throat, in my mind for this to stop and i couldn't do anything. >> oh, my god. 13 years. how has she kept this fight going? big cosby's one of the most famous and beloved characters in the world. >> that's part of why she didn't speak out right away. she actually felt, first of all, a shamed, the way many survivors feel. you know, not rightfully, but that's just how you feel. she also felt like no one would believe her if she said