>> if you look at the very first photo of me, you'll see a man that was very much in control of his life, physically in shape. as you go through to the next booking, alcohol had started to play a bigger factor, facial features have changed, and then you get into the last few years, i think i looked like i aged 20 years, and the fire went out. right now at the stage of my life, i'm almost relieved to be in here right now. coming up -- >> there's at least one inmate in here that knows i was a deputy. >> steven sutherland tries to avoid the predators that target ex-cops. later his own actions are called into question. >> about two seconds later i see his hand come out of the shower, i'm like this dude is an actual predator. >> i should have killed the lady