into the experience of the adrenaline rush of combat that that's what they want. they look for that. when your whole environment is nothing but drive byes and gangland slayings, the thrill of surviving every day is a merit badge. >> even for some of the most hardened prison gang members, the dues of belonging came at too high a cost. >> people would be put in the hat -- meaning the hit list for any agenda. for any reason. i didn't want is that to happen to me. >> when they decided to leave gang life behind, pelican bay had a place for them to go. but admittance came with a price. >> one of the areas at pelican bay is the transitional housing unit, this is where inmates who