‘“I would get in my car and just drive, and I would end up places I didn't even know how I got there. This voice would say, ‘Just ram your car into this tree. Your family would be so much better off if you're just gone.’" At 46, Lorena Saylor had been dealing with depression—and pain-- for decades. Lorena was only five years old when she was molested by a relative. Growing up in Kentucky in a strict religious home, she felt her father blamed her for the abuse. “I was the one that got in trouble; I was the one that got spanked for it. I felt like it was my fault because it was made to feel like it was my fault.”