in my care. so she doesn't have to worry about it. they're helping me. so a woman who is ordained as a priest is automatically — automatically — excommunicated. it is treated as one of the most serious crimes in the church. what it does mean is we are not able to receive any of the sacraments, so i can't receive communion or confession, or, sadly, i'm not going to be able to receive a christian burial. i was going to mass every single day. i worked for a parish. my whole life was the roman catholic church. so to think about giving that up, essentially, i couldn't even really imagine it. but once i recognised that this was the next step, the excommunication was just part of the journey. it's undeniable that i have a vocation to be a roman catholic priest, so by using the term "vatican reject", drawing attention to the fact that it is the vatican