officials. john used to say, you got to have fun, you got to be daring with your life, and with that, i discovered a zest for acting. it was a new direction for me. a way to express creatively all that i felt inside, a way for me to share stories. everything i was doing gave me the feeling that my brother johnny was with me. you got this, kid. it takes a really long time to figure out who you are. and who you were meant to be. and all of us had to find new ways to get there. but if i had given up, oh, oh, boy, my brother would have been so mad at me. >> fathers. mothers, husbands, wives, sons, daughters, brothers, and sisters, all that changed at