>> yeah. >> reporter: the sickness, death and seemingly endless suffering taking its toll on those who come to work every day to save lives at sparrow held. >> the other day i had my first panic attack and i didn't know what it was. i'm a nurse. i should know these things and i drove to work and was just -- i couldn't get out of the car. i'm like what is going on. it was a full on, i'm having a panic attack. i did not want to come into work. >> reporter: stress, tension, anxiety on nas and in the lives of every health care worker here. >> i've gone home a few days an had days where i just cried. as mom it's really hard because my kids are challenged to see that. i have to put on brave front for them too. it's awful. >> reporter: most staff here are vaccinated, sparrow has no vaccine man date for its workers and still suffering a shortage of staff worn thin by stress, endless shift and treating preventible sickness and death.