the e-mail and also the past and determine whether those -- were those moments that are now corrected? my wife and i are now in counseling and working through those steps. >> mr. courser, though, on the most basic level, you're in an affair with another lawmaker, extra-martial affair. at any point when you're caught up in such a bizarre attempt to cover it up, leaking an e-mail, saying you had this tryst with a male prostitute, at any point did you think, why am i going this far? i think what boggles everyone's mind is the cover-up is way more bizarre than an extra-martial affair. why did you do that? >> in those moments it's really difficult to describe but there's an anonymous extortionist that lawmakers are still looking into, executed some warrants and it sounds like there's an organization involved in it and they're pursuing those leads. so, i think some of that's going