did it weigh on you, nichole? >> absolutely, yes. >> talk to me about it. how so? >> seeing it i think the weight of the video just how many times we did see it was the importance of the video. and it was -- it was traumatic for sure. >> was it the first time -- did anybody see it for the first time in the courtroom? >> in its entirety, yeah. >> you saw it for the first time in its entirety and? >> i almost wanted to shut my eyes. it bothered me so much, and it was mainly how could somebody do that to someone else? and it was a slow death. it wasn't just a gunshot and they're dead. it was a slow death and you are doing this. and it bothered me to the fact that a person can do this to another person. and i felt for george. i'm just like uh, and it just got to my core. when i first saw it i think i watched maybe 2 seconds on the video on the news. i had to walk away. it bothered me so much somebody can do that to somebody. >> did you take it home with you