i didn't stay out of any kind of loyalty to the leader. i didn't stay even out of any loyalty to the belief system at that point. i stayed because i was scared, and i couldn't figure out how to leave. so, i was in for about 10 1/2 years. people do go through a very deep psychological change that is brought about by the indoctrination methods in the group. and the group really believed that they were training for this trip to outer space. >> they said, "we want to be part of a crew, a crew which acts as a whole." and they looked at "star trek" and said, "that's it." >> captain's log, stardate 41153.7. our destination is planet deneb iv, beyond which lies the great unexplored mass of the galaxy.