it didn't happen. there were few people who were out and proud in the 80s. >> then his lover becomes ill six months into the relationship. anselmo found out he had hiv and george was devastated. >> imagine the horror of waiting all your life for love for authentic love and then within months your lover says i have a deadly disease. >> george stuck by him and he helped him. he was by his side 24/7. >> anselmo dies in 1993. shattering george michael. he goes into a deep depression and he has depression in his family history. so, there is a real struggle, and he begins to medicate with prozac and pot and he describes