and she competed in the team event, i couldn't believe my eyes. i have never seen anything like that. and now i know i was right. i shouldn't have believed my eyes. because it was unbelievable. and it makes us all frustrated and confused and upset that this came from that specific skater. because we were so excited about her. but it puts into question her entire team and the integrity of that, you know, of that team. you know, russia here competing again under a flag that's not their own for multiple doping violations and uncovering a state-sponsored doping program, that's not good. and it's just -- you know, it feels like a farce. it feels like a joke that we had to sit through that yesterday. >> i think you're also tapping into something, adam, which is -- and, look, we have seen your tweets. february 5th you were saying what can we even say in all